One Day We Will Understand

I wrote this in Oct after my cousin passed away. I was at home wondering why... and this was the answer I received.

I posted online because I know other members of my family had the same question, and I hoped maybe this answer could help them start to understand as well. Then I read it at his funeral per my aunt's request.

Sometimes we wonder “what-if?” But what is to be… shall be as it’s supposed to be. And you play the scenario over and over again in your head. If I did this…if I sad that… if it was… if it wasn't. Life happens as it’s supposed to happen and we have to accept the pain, the disappointment, the hurt we experience in this life. The pain, the disappointment, the hurt we need to experience to grow. Or what is perceived to be the pain, the disappointment, or the hurt that is truly the relief, the end of suffering or the bringing of peace for some. 

We have to absorb it… accept it… and power through it. Because regardless of what we could have… should have... might have done… life will be what it’s supposed to be. Whether we understand it now… tomorrow… next week… next year or 10 years from now. There is nothing we could have done to change destiny. 

God has a plan for all of us. Sometimes we understand it. Many times we don’t. And we pray… we cry… we beg and make promises in hopes of getting what we want or gaining a better understanding. But one day it becomes clear. And the pain subsides. And we understand. But in the mean time… we hurt… we cry… and we ask “why?” 

It’s okay to express our grief. It’s okay to not understand. It’s okay to ask for an explanation. 

God has a plan for all of us. 

One day we will all understand.

Rest In Peace Anthony