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Why do they wait until they f*ck up to tell you they love you? Why do they wait until you no longer want them to tell you how much you meant back then? Why do they wait?... Why do they wait to tell you?... Why do they think you'll forgive them? Why do they think you'll do it all over again? What do they think? Do they think? What do they think you will say? What do they think you will do? Why do they think you'll give them chance number two? Why do they think they deserve another shot? Why do they think you'd want to give it one more try? Why do they think the tears have dried? What gives you the right? Why would you try? Why do you think you deserve one more cry? Why did you have to lie? Why did you run and hide? Why didn't you appreciate it the first time? Why did you cover your eyes? Why didn't you see it when it was live? Why did you act like you didn't want to try? Why were you distance time after time? Why...

I have a like-hate relationship with online dating. I can't say love, because I've honestly never loved the idea of it, nor participating in it. But if I want to expand my horizons, thoughts, experiences, views, life. I have to partake in things outside my comfort zone. Online Dating is one of those things. Just outside the boundary of my comfort. I don't like it. But I do it because I feel like I'm out of options as a home-body. I don't go out much, so I don't meet many people. Hmmmm.... actually I don't meet anyone. Insert sad face emoji. So... I sign up on the app. Struggle to fill out the "about me" section. Scroll through my pics to try and find at least one pic that isn't a selfie to add to my profile. Remember.... I don't go out much so most of my pictures are self portraits. (That sounds a little better than selfie) And when I do go out with friends, they are anti-picture taking friends. Fortunately I just went on vacation, ...