Now Eye See Her Blog

 She changed the way she lived  She changed the way she loved  She changed the way she smiled  She did it for a while  She liked the way it felt  She loved the way he smelled  He changed the way she smiled  He changed the way she felt  He felt the way she loved  He loved the way she lived  He loved the way she felt  He changed the way she loved  She did it for herself  She did it for self love  She did it so she'd smile  She did it all the time  Copyright (C) 2015  Picture taken at the High Line in NYC

I know a girl who laughed when she was sad She would cry and then pretend to be glad She lived a lie so you wouldn’t feel bad She’d close her eyes and imagine that… I know a girl who pretends to be someone she doesn’t want to be This girl lives the life she believes you want to see She does the things you think should be done by she She completes the tasks you want her to complete She is the girl you want her to be I know a girl who cried when she was alone And then you would call but she couldn’t answer the phone She couldn’t talk to you because you would know by her tone She couldn’t disappoint you so she’d pretend to be gone I know this girl who has low self esteem She doesn’t see herself as she should be seen She doesn’t believe she is worthy of things So I understand why she refuses to believe I know this girl who is the victim of dreams She hopes she can achieve the things she wants to achieve She lays out her plans and tries...

I wrote this in Oct after my cousin passed away. I was at home wondering why... and this was the answer I received. I posted online because I know other members of my family had the same question, and I hoped maybe this answer could help them start to understand as well. Then I read it at his funeral per my aunt's request. Sometimes we wonder “what-if?” But what is to be… shall be as it’s supposed to be. And you play the scenario over and over again in your head. If I did this…if I sad that… if it was… if it  wasn't . Life happens as it’s supposed to happen and we have to accept the pain, the disappointment, the hurt we experience in this life. The pain, the disappointment, the hurt we need to experience to grow. Or what is perceived to be the pain, the disappointment, or the hurt that is truly the relief, the end of suffering or the bringing of peace for some.  We have to absorb it… accept it… and power through it. Because regardless of what we could have… sho...

Dear Someone I Used To Know, I’m don't know what lesson I need to learn from your cameo appearance in this story called life.  A cameo appearance that had a larger than expected impact. You came in. You stole the show. You played an Oscar worthy role. And then you exited stage left.  I must have been rehearsing and missed a scene because I’m lost. And this is my story! At first I pressed replay over and over and over again. Watching that scene play in my mind a thousand times, trying to put it all together.  Now… I tucked it away. I don’t watch it anymore. If I haven’t gotten it by now, there’s no point in replaying it a thousand times. So… I placed it in the hands of The Most High. One day He will reveal it to me. When it is the right time, it will come to light.  Until then, I have moved on to the next scene. I have so many more scenes left to experience. I cannot get stuck on just one. The show must go on.  My story is not over! From,...